I take thee Serenity...

This amounts to taking the bull by the horns and publicly "journalling" - something I have never been good at or consistent with in private.

I was about 13 or 14 when I read a romantic and gentle book called I take thee, Serenity. I'd like to be serene, I thought, and I have been working on it ever since. In my 30's I realised that I could not achieve it without really putting my hand in His, and trusting He is in control, and that things will work out for good.

I think He and I have achieved over time, serenity in anything and everything that doesn't involve my Dear Husband and Precious Sons.(oh, and the self serve tills at Big W) I don't think serene is a word They would apply to me, but in work situations I have been accused of being "so calm!".

Yes, despite Serenity being noble and desirable, it is a quality one is accused of, questioned suspiciously about, and told off for - as in don't keep it all in, I can't believe you're so calm, and I'm worried about you, you're too calm....

In the last few years, my aspirations towards Serenity have been picked up thrown down and smashed, and put together again numerous times, and now once again. What God has really shown me is that the "I take thee" part is more desirable than the Serenity part. The part where your hand reaches out and grabs His, and there it is. He has shown me that often His hand is His word, but even more often, it is a real human hand, given in love. and what is Love?

So in the unfolding story (drama?) see if you can spot the Hand.